May 22, 2012

The Inner Yogi

Who doesn't like yoga? Ok, well I'm sure there are people out there who don't, but how can you argue with stretching, relaxing and finding the peace within?

best place I've done yoga: early morning on the water, at Hornby Island, a teeny island off the coast of British Columbia

After an intense couple of months with Ben's uber-long work hours (his "busy season"), I was feeling depleted. I don't have to tell any moms that as much as we love our kiddos, being the sole caretaker for a toddler from sunrise to sunset every day can make you feel a little ... frazzled.

So when I saw the opportunity to do a yoga bootcamp a few weeks back, I jumped on it! It was scheduled just for us pulled-together and motivated frazzled moms (and some dads too), who can only manage to sneak away from the family if we rise before they do - 6am to 7am every day for one week. I am NOT a morning person, but I figured I could make it work for five days. And I really needed a boost. And some time to drive in the car by myself. (Does anybody else find that to be a luxury as a stay-at-home mom? Driving alone with music blasting and windows down?)

self-care at its finest: quietly reading a book at Hornby Island!

Turns out yoga bootcamp - hosted by a fabulous local mama, Jennifer Derryberry Mann (check out her excellent blog all about self care) at a fabulous yoga studio, Steadfast and True Yoga - is one of the best things I've done for myself in a while. The class is focused on being kind to yourself, loving yourself, things I initially thought I was doing an average, though maybe not stellar, job of. Now that I am taking inventory of my body, emotions, breathing, and all that good stuff, throughout the day, I realize that I spend a lot of my day with anxiety and tension.

In my ongoing efforts to relate to my 18-month old, to react to him constantly and let him know that I get his emotions, I find that I'm also taking on his emotions, and letting myself stay in almost a frantic state all day. Not good! But yoga is all about not judging myself, it's about accepting. So that's what I'm doing. Acknowledging and accepting, letting go of fears and judgements, and hoping that as a result I will breathe more, slow down and enjoy the moments of each day more richly.

ahhhh, namaste

One moment from the bootcamp that has really stuck with me, and helped me be a better mama, is when our teacher Jennifer showed us a back bend. Then she showed us how to walk back and forth while in a back bend, and it looked like no big deal. However, when I got into position and tried to walk forward and backward on my OWN hands and feet, I found my brain did not want to cooperate with my body! It was so darn difficult! So when Max gets frustrated with small things lately, I remember that feeling, of knowing what I want my body to do, and not being able to make it happen. I think that must be what much of life is like for a toddler. It's just plain hard being an 18-month old in a big world!

Yoga just rocks my pants off sometimes. I always learn a little something new while practicing it.

Namaste, friends :)

1 comment:

  1. Aww, Jennifer! I am so glad the bootcamp was meaningful for you, especially the brain-freeze backbend :-) And I COMPLETELY understand about loving that solo time in the car! Rock on, good-hearted mama! xoxox